Monday, August 15, 2005
haiz... i dont know what im feeling now sia... should i be agitated, angry, frustrated, sad... well i know for sure that i was feeling very agitated just now... then i decided to take a nap before i exploded... taking a nap always helps to calm me down...
i dont know what he's problem is... he has been picking on me for the past week or so... i can still remember the instances where i was so irritated by him that i could feel my anger building up inside... i just kept quiet n when to take a nap... raising his voice at me when im just relaying a msg like i was the one who said it, asking me to shut up for no reason, finding faults with the way i do the chores when its perfectly normal... and today, he scolded at me over a small thing, n he went on to other stuff... i was like " WTF !!! "...
sometimes i just feel so unappreciated by my family... like i dont belong here... everytime i do something, there will be someone picking on me... but when my sis does the same mistakes, no one ever scolds her... she gets all the VIP treatment... n i must say she's a damn good actress... on one hand she can complain that she doesnt have enough time to study for her promotional exams when we talk about a holz, and on the other hand, when our parents are not around, she can be sitting in her room, lying on her bed n reading her book together with watching the tv... when they come back, she just sit there n pretend to be reading... when im slping she doesnt want to use the com to do her work, n when i wake up n wana use, she will wana use it as well... then she will tell my parents that she needs to do her work, n i get chase out... wth is this !!!
arghX... everything has a limit bahX... think im going to reach that limit le... whatever happens when that happens i have no idea...
waking up from my lonely world at 12:48 AM;
