Monday, October 03, 2005
haiz... how time flies... its only 5 more days before i go to ns... so fast just by looking back on the past... 20 years have past n finally its bout time i go into national service... n for the next 2 years, there will be so many things that i cant do, or dont have the time to do, seeing that my weekdays are burnt n weekends are so short...
im having mixed feelings bout going to ns... im not scared or at least i dont think i am about ns, its just that when i come to think how different life will be for the next 2 years, i just feel a little uptight n frightened... maybe frightened is not a right word to use, but i cant think of any other words to use at the moment... or maybe worried is another word that i can use... im worried that things will change... im frighten that things will not turn out what i hope to be... but at least i can tell myself that i have done my best to make things right while i still am able to ... at least i can say that i have been able to do most of the things that i wana do before i go in n have enjoyed myself before national service...
will i be able to adapt to army life fast enough? or will i be like the minority? but im sure that i will be able to cope n adapt to army life... if my frenz can do it i dont see why cant i... especially when i have my darling and my family with me all the while...
~gambette~
waking up from my lonely world at 1:43 AM;
