Saturday, February 03, 2007
its been like what 3-4 months since my last post... to think that my first post after such a long time in which so many things have happened would be one that i dread to write about... Has it been in the signs all along or was it a chance on kinda thing. Seems like things are coming back in a full circle once more...
a few days back:
"heeX... nvm arh... u do duty den i help you go visiting with ur parents and collect the ang paos on ur behalf..." "haha den u will keep in your pocket right =pPp" "haha... yea... its mine =X"
"dar... ur bdae that day i quite busy lehx..." "ohh its ok arhx... u busy i understand... heeX... ur work more important... anyway who says i got time for u that day anyway =pPp" "what... i mean i morning i got to go to school to settle some stuff until late noon then at night i working..." "its ok arh... u do what u need to do... i can find my own activities de... dont need to worry ;) we can always celebrate later mah... anyway bdae everyyear also have =X" "nooooo... we can still celebrate arh... i finish in the noon then i meet u we go celebrate then at night then i go work... heeX"
"darling... what do you want for your bithday... i haven buy yet... heeX..." "something simple can le dont need buy too expensive ;)"
last night:
"i need to talk to you..." " what's it about darling" "i think we need a cooling off period..." "what happen?" "just that i feel that there are problems between us that nv got solved... we are almost together for 3 years already, and thats a long time, people change... i think we need time to think things through... i want to convince myself that the feelings are still there, but i find it very hard to do so..." "so you're trying to tell me that the feelings between us is no longer there?" "yesh... thats why i said the both of us needs time to think things thru............................."
its funny how fate plays a fool out of someone... just a few days back, things were still going nicely... sweetly to add... but look at what happen in the blink of an eye... how drastic things can change... and to add to the confusion, we were still talking happily on the phone earlier in the evening... haizz... i myself have no idea whats happening... i can only hope that the circle doesnt end yet... not now... not ever...
its only a few days to my bdae, and even a few more days after that to valentine's day, and even a few more days to our 3rd anniversary... will this year prove to be a lonely one... one where i foresee spending my bdae alone, without the one i love by my side on valentine's day and to a day where it was almost our 3rd but will nv come? God knows................................................
waking up from my lonely world at 12:50 PM;
