Wednesday, February 14, 2007
i was full of hopes this morning when i first when over to find dar... i stayed up all night to prepare breakfast for her... salad and sandwich... wasnt easy but was worth it i felt...
she took one mouthful from each of it and declared she wasnt hungry... i felt hurt that after all the time spent thats all i got from it...
we had another talk but she still doesnt want to give in... neither do i... its just like she's trying very hard to convince herself to give it another chance but most of her doesnt want to... and its like im trying very hard to convince myself that i should let her go, but most of me doesnt want to... we ended up deciding to talk about it either tml or fri...
the past few weeks i have been struggling with the thoughts of our problems... i know she has been struggling as well... its better for one to suffer than for the both of us to suffer, and that i should let go since she no longer has a heart set in maintaining the relationship... but i dont know why i just cant let go of it... i just cant...............................................................................................
now i know what it feels like to be torn apart...............................................
waking up from my lonely world at 6:39 PM;
